Sam is pushing me away or something. EFF EFF EFF. I'm so sad, I'm going to like cry. I hate how this always happens, I'm like cursed or something. It hurts a lot, watching him be happy with his newer friends, but neglecting me. I mean, I'm glad he's happy at times, but I guess I wish he's consider me even just a little. Mis heard me as a .. bad person the other day because he just happened to be there while I was yelling at my sister. See, my sister was smirking at me because my mom was talking about how she should have taken me to the US and then left me here while she went back to her home country. I yelled at my sister, telling her that if my mom did that, she wouldn't even exist right now. Yeah, I'm horrible, but I can't help it. Sometimes, I just hate my mom sooo much. Yeah, I'm going to go shower now. I'm not going to let this one away so easy, but I'm tired of doing what I have to do because it doesn't even work. I feel like a bystander who's getting affected, but can't do anything about it.

-Sh.